PSALM 136: 1–3:
“Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of gods,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord of lords,
for his steadfast love endures forever”
When the month of August started I was letting go of a few things. Old habits, adjusting my attitude, my flaws and shortcomings. August was all about new beginnings. Turning the page and putting one foot in front of the other. Some things were certainly easier said than done.
I was constantly trying to live my best life and accomplish all of my ambitions within a short period of time. I was competing with myself and I was losing. Each month I’d start out strong and suddenly find myself trying to stretch beyond my capabilities. I was going so fast that my head was spinning and the world around me was beginning to crumble. I’m a person that likes to have some sort of control over my life, actions, and thoughts. I’m a person of great faith and although I’m in control of myself, I yield to God’s presence over my life. Sometimes I want to accelerate the process and move past where I am to get to my destination. God allows me to go just far enough before I hit a roadblock and turn back to Him for guidance.
Like anyone else, I’m not all bad and I’m certainly not all good. I’m a continuous work in progress. When August began I released all of the heavy burdens on my shoulders. Apologized to me for criticizing and judging myself so harshly for being human. I accepted that every step is a powerful step in the right direction. August was more confirmation that I am on a journey of learning more about the woman I’m destined to become in this life. August made me realize that I have a lot to be grateful for despite where I am in this chapter of my life.
- After all the trials and tribulations, my oldest son is finally on the right path of understanding his presence in the world. Change doesn’t happen overnight, but it comes right on time.
- New connections and opportunities- I used to talk myself out of paying for an online course or meeting someone new at a coffee shop. I thought I couldn’t afford the course or I could find it for free online. Meeting new people wasn’t about them, it was more about me being confident and comfortable in my skills and qualities that I bring to the table. I realized that if something was important enough to me, I would find the money to support my goal. I learned that my accomplishments are noteworthy and that I am capable of bridging the gap of where I am and where I am going.
- Forward: Sometimes things work out in our favor and sometimes they don’t for the better. When we don’t get the result we want we can choose to accept the defeat or rejection as an opportunity for growth. Or we can shrink down within ourselves and analyze the situation and try to control things. As I come more into my womanhood, I’ve learned that the best thing you can do is be grateful that things didn’t work out the way you intended. Trust and believe that God has something better on the other side for you. Move on with your life.
- Healing friendships: I always looked at my friends as apart of my family. Like family you have disagreements. Unlike family, friendships take a lot more maintenance and honesty. I needed to be honest about the amount of energy I was pouring into my friendship. I needed to give as much as I was asking to receive in my friendships in order for them to grow.
- Appreciate the NOW: Don’t think it’s not happening just because it’s not happening now. This is a part of the process. This is needed for it to happen. Everything is conspiring towards my ultimate victory. Sometimes it may be hard to see or understand. But, it the truth.
I always want to lead with a grateful and humble heart. We are put on this earth to learn and share our gifts with the world. Every day is an opportunity for us to grow one step closer to who God created us to be. I’m looking forward to an abundant September. I hope you are too!
How was your August?